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[ex_outofcontrol435]

real talk?
i've never had anything go anywhere
i don't know what it fucking looks like except from the outside
long term, temporary, whatever
never happened

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ask her out.

you don't have any history with her. it's uncomplicated.
see where it goes.

[ex_outofcontrol435]

i wanted to get rid of this

but if it's just a date
i can do that

[medals]

you can't switch off your feelings, unfortunately.

[ex_outofcontrol435]

yeah, i know that much
now i'm just running straight for them
shows how much i learned

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well if it all goes tits up you can come and get smashed at petre's house with me
he'll probably be unconscious

[ex_outofcontrol435]

has he been sober yet
at all, for like a second

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yeah on his birthday
but mostly because i took him by surprise with plans

and he had to get it up so

should i stage an intervention???

[ex_outofcontrol435]

i saw him when he was pretty fucked up
he had it bad for that guy, huh

[medals]

it's complicated

i don't think cole really knew how deep it went with petre? they were completely different with one another than they were with me

[ex_outofcontrol435]

he doesn't seem like that deep a guy
i know i don't know him that well but he doesn't
he didn't anyway

i dunno
i never even met this guy
i just know a bunch of people went off the deep end when he left

[medals]

i wouldn't call him deep but he's
you know
not all shallow and full of shit all of the time?

yeah he helped people a lot here. he helped me a lot. we just
talked about stuff all the time. he let me come over at arse o'clock if i had a nightmare, no matter what. he just understood all my shit and i think i got most of his.
i never had that before with someone who wasn't actually a cunt deep down.

and i know he did all that for other people too, but does it make me a bad person if i don't give a shit about them?

[ex_outofcontrol435]

petre said the same thing
so you're a good match

[Well. That sounds like a damn good friendship, he has to admit. And he can see how the feelings would run deeper. It's hard to stay bitter about that.]

i know what you mean about someone getting your shit
and how it feels when someone finally gets it
especially when no one did at the time

[That might be when it clicked over with Lex, actually. When she saw his memory and understood every single goddamned second better than his friends had.]

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ofc we are.

idk i think it's hard to find people like that? so it's important when you do find them.

[ex_outofcontrol435]

i mean it
couples are usually gross as shit to me
but when i saw you two together

[Nothing else comes after that. Just the idea, maybe, enough of a seed to put it there, that they helped with his willingness to try something real.]

[medals]

did we make you believe in true love
awwhhh

not to burst your bubble but he hasn't said the l word

[ex_outofcontrol435]

do i really seem like the type who wants that

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you really don't want me to answer that

[ex_outofcontrol435]

why?
why would you think i'm looking for fucking love and not
just someone who gets me
finally

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it's the same thing

[ex_outofcontrol435]

no
it's not
even that's not enough

[medals]

what is it with you and petre jfc

[ex_outofcontrol435]

how'd he get back into this?

[medals]

'even that's not enough'

[ex_outofcontrol435]

it's not
love's conditional, temporary, selfish
and useless
not interested