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[and he won't say anything for the next hour! And fifteen minutes. Which is how long it takes him to make it to her house - but why! Usually he's so fast. (Hope she spent all that time thinking it was going to be another threesome tbh)

BELL RINGING NOW go go go.]

[she absolutely does, tbh.By the time he's ringing her doorbell, she's definitely expecting Petre plus whoever. But he's alone and she's just baffled. She lets him in, suspicious and eyeing him all the way. ]

I really hope you've started seeing ghosts, because I don't want to be the one to tell you that imaginary friends aren't real.

[The thing is - not only does Petre show up alone, but he doesn't even step in once she makes way. What a weirdo. Instead he just talks from the outside of the door, like it's exactly where he's meant to be.]

They aren't? Shit. [He frowns, eyes focusing nowhere to pretend he's got a lot to think about. Then it fades from his features and he's chipper again.] Good thing I got something else.

[And so he crouches over to the side, to where she couldn't see before, to produce a baby pink transporter. A baby pink pet transporter. With a pet inside.]

A little buddy for my little buddy-?

[by which he means the very scruffy looking kitten mewling at her god help us all]

[She squeaks. It's a tiny, surprised squeak, her eyes immediately on the kitten like it is the only thing in the entire world. She is a sucker for cute tiny pets, who knew? When she steps forwards, it's to tap against the latch with her fingers, cooing softly. ]

Oh no, who is this?

[It's so cute and fluffy. ]

Hello, hello lovely. Do you want to come in? Yes? -- [and she finally glances up at Petre, grinning. ] You can come in too, I suppose.

[It's mewling incessantly. Love me. Also let me claw at your fingers with my tiny but really sharp claws.

Look at Jem. Might as well have melted into a pile of goo. He done good.]

See, I knew that'd finally get me in your house. What as it, level 11?

[THAT WAS SO LONG AGO!!!]

You could've come over any time you liked, you doughnut.

[After level 11; he didn't even have to use the front door, honestly. Her fingers are itching to open the front latch, but, you know --]

Can I take it out? [It's mewling too much; how is Jem supposed to resist all of that?]

What kind of question is that? I didn't bring Lady Di to stay caged up forever. That's not her style.

Lady Di, is that her name?

[She ushers him all the way in, shuts the door and gently takes the transporter from him. She sets it down on the couch, opens the latch and very carefully picks up Lady Di with both hands, beaming from ear to ear. ]

She's so soft - [and she sits down, tiny kitten in her lap.]

It is now.

[He Has Decided.]

Think you can take good care of her?

[She scratches behind an ear, utterly focused on every tiny mewl and purr. ] I can really keep her?

[Said with some awe; like are you sure you trust me with this. It feels like she barely take care of herself at times. When she glances at Petre again, there's the familiar feeling in her chest. Chest tight, utterly fond. ]

Yeah, I'll take good care of her.

I got her for you.

[Never mind that she's got roommates. He comes closer, sits next to Jem, leaning a bit over his knees to watch the impatient kitten get used to her new owner's lap.]

You take care of her, I'll take care of you.

[That's fair, right.]

[Whether or not Gwen and Verity like cats doesn't cross her mind. She is keeping it; they can take Lady Di from her cold dead hands. But - she pauses, watches him carefully and then snorts, eyes back on the kitten. ]

Careful there. My big brother already thinks you're my secret boyfriend.

[How long can she just stare at a kitten? Forever?]

If one of the girls hears you talk like that, I'll get twenty questions.

[Petre takes it as a joke, of course. He smiles all the way through, bringing up a finger to play with Jem's hair, brushing some behind her ear.]

Well, shit, I got you a cat. I might as well be your boyfriend.

[She means it as a joke; she's half laughing when he responds, except her chest gets tighter and there's a nervous, frightened energy about her. Not of him, but of facing her feelings in front of him. She wets her lips again and she's smiling still. A small thing; the corners of her mouth dimpled. ]

Don't joke about it, I might take you seriously and ask for a dog on our anniversary.

[Her chest just gets tighter and tighter and when she breathes, she feels like she might burst. She glances up at him, through her lashes and - she could tell him, now. She could just say exactly how she feels and it'd be done with. She tickles under the kittens chin to keep her hands busy and tries to rearrange the words the right. ] You know I like you, right?

[He's still smiling, even if his lips are softer around the edges. There's something new about the way his eyes travel from feature to feature, too, attention all on her. She keeps playing with the cat, showering her with affection, but Lady Di might as well not even exist. He's only thinking of Jem now - how glad he is that she didn't leave after all.]

Yeah. Of course. I like you too.

[Her whole face goes fond, like he's said something incredibly endearing. Too subtle, she thinks and this time, her smile's a little brighter. ]

I care about you, you bloody walnut.

[Confessing to Gary had not been this hard; all she'd had to do was kiss him and that had been that. Everything with Petre is in reverse. ] A lot, is what I'm trying to say here. You know, with feelings and all that stuff.

[nailed it]

[It'd be a novel concept, being cared for. Cole already tried to tell Petre he was worried about him, when all he could see was the fear that the monster might come out. Genuine friends aren't something he really believes in. The only exception is Diana, and she's more like a sister.

Far as Petre is aware - and he's very aware - he's too atrocious to ever be liked. Through the bullshit he pulls up, through his blunt crudeness and sometimes careful manipulations. He doesn't exactly try to hide how much of an asshole he is, but what she saw the other night was... the opposite of that, maybe. The eagerness to have her around, the fear that she might be too scared of him. He didn't want her to leave. She didn't want to leave him, either. That's why they're both here right now.]

... With feelings.

[It's why she stayed in the first place; even frightened and out of her mind, she cared about him. Even if she's still not sure if she'll ever be alright with what he does, she cares and she can't stop. She doesn't really want to stop. He's always so ridiculous; always so ready to make her laugh. Even now, bringing her a kitten, he surprises her.

If he thinks he's not the sort to be really liked, Jem's not sure how she was ever supposed to resist. ]

Yeah, with feelings. [She's resisting the urge to shut her eyes and cover her face with a palm. ] Please don't make me talk about how much I like you. [It's honestly too gross for words; I think about you all the time / all I do is talk about you.]

[His arm slides around her back and shoulders, angling his head with curiosity in his eyes. This is new. Someone talking to him like this, making him guess what's coming afterwards without laughing out loud. On any other person he'd think it was pathetic, but this is Jem and the thought makes his chest warm.]

But I want you to.

[His finger lifts her chin, turns her face so they can look at each other.]

What kind of feelings?

[It's a little strange, fighting between wanting to shrink away in embarrassment and feeling compelled to be as honest as possible. If he's guessing, she's not aware. It's so onvious to her, why shouldn't it be as obvious to everyone else? There's a small pause while she lets her chin be lifted and she watches him, trying to decide if he's messing with her.

Lady Di drifts off in her lap; a tiny, purring ball. Honestly, Jem's envious. ]

Apparently, [a good start] I talk about you all the time. [She wets her bottom lip. ] So. Romantic, I guess. [she's so good at this.] You know, when you're with someone and your heart beats really fast, or tummy gets in knots? Your chest feels like it's too tight.

[He's thought it before, again and again, but it doesn't stop. This is new. Something he hasn't had before, from anyone, not in a way that actually feels genuine. He's manipulated people into doing anything for him, into being devoted in horrible ways, but there's none of that here. Whatever he did was out of his own volition, not some ulterior motive to get his way.

The silence that follows is thoughtful, contemplative. His eyes search her features like he'll find something new if he just keeps looking, but no. This is the Jem he knows. The Jem he adores, he thinks. His only reference is Diana when it comes to caring about someone else, and while there's no comparison between the two girls, Jem is very much still within the scope.]

... Yeah. I know.

[His hand moves from her chin to her neck, her shoulder. Brushing her hair back, tucking some of it behind her ear.]

When I thought you were gonna leave me, [A pause, because he's looking for words he hasn't used before.] It hurt. I didn't want to be without you.

['Like' isn't enough, but 'love' is an impossibility for a thing like him.]

I want you.

[It's a slither of honesty she's not fully expecting. Though, she hadn't been sure what to expect at all from after telling him this. She spent the first few weeks in Eudio drilling it into herself that falling for anyone was a no-no. She had naively assumed it wouldn't be possible; Gary had been a fresh wound after all. But here she is; Petre says he wants her and she wants to let him. More than that, she wants him too. It frightens her how much; how much she's willingly allowed herself to overlook for him.

She leans into his touch, quiet as a mouse. She watches him carefully and feels something fierce in her chest, close to possesive. It's new; she'd been jealous of Gary's ex because she'd been the love of his life. Here, she knows there's no point in getting jealous; there's a city full of people to fuck. Petre flirts with almost everybody. But it's the emotional connection; she doesn't want to share it.

Suddenly this feels like such a huge conversation. ] I want you, too.

[It feels like a weight off her chest, too. She reaches out to place a hand against his jaw, fingers gently caressing. ] You can have me, stupid.

[There's no need to waste any more time with words, is there. He knows what she means now, and she knows what he means. He can have her, and he will. With a smile he leans in, presses his lips to hers, careful not to disturb the peaceful and small Lady Di. It's a kiss that, while heartfelt, does not quite make it to hungry, but Petre still finds himself a little breathless when he stops, resting his forehead against hers.]

You know I can't do relationships. Not like they're supposed to be. Right?

I know. [Jem knows; or rather, she suspected. She's smiling too, so maybe she's alright with that. At the back of her mind is Ariadne and how fucked up about Johnny she'd been. They need to keep talking, she knows, to avoid ending up like that. But for just a moment she wants to indulge in the quiet intimacy of his forehead against her own and the way she feels embarrassingly pleased. ]

We don't have to be monogamous. We don't have to be anything. I just - [and she feels a little breathless too, having it out in the open. ] I just felt like I was gonna burst.

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