( fuck that guy. fuck that danny didn't kill him. fuck that danny doesn't know the right words to say to make any of this better because that's another way his daddy failed him, because that's what his daddy to him and now that's what danny does to other people, quid pro quo: make them feel small and worthless. )
[ it hasn't been long at all, has it? three months, give or take. sometimes she still feels worthless, when she's all alone and left to the silence of her own thoughts. she tries very hard not to think about it; she tries even harder not to remember the way Billy had burned with humiliation and anger, how small he'd looked next to her. how little she'd been able to do to to fight.
sometimes she still scrubs herself raw when it's just her in the shower or the bath. frantic, mindless scrubbing, back and forth, over and over again.
she felt worthless before Orest, too. less often than now, but sometimes. she isn't sure she can put into words how much it means that Danny tells her she isn't.]
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i don’t
i don’t want you to look at me differently
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ugly
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and it hurt
he took things from me that i trusted other people with and he ruined them
he made me feel small
and worthless
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baby, you ain't worthless.
cw: rape aftermath thoughts
sometimes she still scrubs herself raw when it's just her in the shower or the bath. frantic, mindless scrubbing, back and forth, over and over again.
she felt worthless before Orest, too. less often than now, but sometimes. she isn't sure she can put into words how much it means that Danny tells her she isn't.]
you never make me feel worthless.
i want the things he took from me back